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Blog Archive - January 2008

28-Jan-08 -- This past weekend a bunch of us in my family went to Sonoma.  It was raining a lot but my first trips to the wineries (anywhere, ever) were pleasant.  I don't drink, but I ate too much (overdosed on the olive-caper pesto samples).

25-Jan-08 -- One month since Alex called me out of duty on xmas day.  One ugly month of no communication except my chatting her up on AIM (which she is always logged into I'm sure to chat with her friends as it is not in “idle” mode).  That conversation I initiated in chat did not go well, and then she simply ignored me since.  One ugly month of wondering if my daughter is safe, warm, cares about me or my recent scare with MRSA (it was not MRSA but I did have to go back to the doctor).  One month of wondering why I bothered to make a ticket for her Spring Break to visit me in March.  One month of knowing that even if I had added money ($50 bucks a pop) to her cell phone or let her keep a laptop and the $60/month internet connection I provided her with, she would not have used it one bit for communication with me.  One month of knowing her mother has free long distance but did not call me once on any of my phone lines.  One month of pleading with her to set up the webcam I bought her on her computer so that I could videoconference with her now that her mother has high speed internet.  One month of knowing that if she still had the digital camera I gave her, I would not have received one picture, not even one picture of the holidays have I received from her.  One month of ignored emails, even though I spent many hours configuring her email client software and eradicating months of spam that had accumulated.  One months without having received an email from my only child.  I have not heard my daughter’s voice this entire year so far.

If Alexandra does not want me in her life, I will completely extricate her from mine until she wises up, if ever.  I go through my days trying to forget about her and how much pain it is that I am forcing myself to not call her

21-Jan-08 -- Had the day off for MLKJr., but Josh did not.  Went to Berkeley and ate at Bistro Liaison (thanks for the recommendation Jon) with Tony and Rick.  It was rainy and bleak, but then we headed to Bearbucks in the Castro and picked Josh up after work.  His place of employment is extremely opulent and it's visible from the street, to my surprise.

20-Jan-08 -- Went to San Jose for brunch again while Rick worked.  Josh and I took Tony to have brunch with Eric and Guido at Hobees, which was very loud, and then we went to the flea market, where we met up with Rob and Dylan.  Josh and I took the plunge and ordered a bedroom set.

14-Jan-08 -- My daughter's been breaking my heart by not calling me, and I know she's online at her mother's, but she doesn't even make the effort to chat me up for at least two weeks.  I haven't heard her voice since xmas day.  I got a happy new year chat message, and that's the last time I heard from her.  And she expects me to put money on her prepay cell phone or let her keep her laptop?  Her mother has free long distance and she can't make an effort to call me for weeks?  I'm taking my family's advice and not calling her (this is the longest stretch, and I'm letting it fester with each day).  She should be calling her father, who had primary custody of her until last year.  Josh sweetly tried to text message her this past week, because he knows how agitated I get about these things, especially when we thought I had MRSA, but he didn't know that her phone is sitting idle.

Tonight I'm going to a friend's hot tub after work.  It's been a long day with a major rollout at work, so I need to relax.  Doing things outdoors this time of year is really appreciated after so long on the east coast.  Josh and I are feeling all better since last week and I did not have MRSA, just a minor cut on my scalp that got infected and gave me a fever.  We had a lovely time this past weekend relaxing and shopping with my Mom.  We also had brunch with Eric and Guido at  the Cardinal Lounge, a seemingly gay-friendly diner  in San Jose.  They had an awesome buffet which I partook in, and lots of bear-men patrons (people who are actually acquaintances of Guido and Eric's, not just men who looked bearish).  After brunch we went to the flea market on Berryessa.  We also hung out with our new friend, Rick Domenici, beginning in the Castro on Friday evening, having dinner at Harvey's.  Josh and Rick were miffed waiting for me, though, since I got stuck at work for a few hours longer than anticipated while they waited in the car.  I felt terrible.

9-Jan-08 -- I'm pissed that I may have a minor case of MRSA or MSSA three days before I wanted to take a road trip, and then on top of it Josh has a strep infection.  The rain should stop by Saturday morning at least, assuming my doctor says I can still go.

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