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Real Home and Garden Updates

My contractor had suggested leveling this cemented corner area and also creating defensive space where this old rose bush is on my house under renovation (after the fire). I reluctantly said yes to the cement since I knew it would make the house safer, and that is my number one criteria for all decisions after the trauma of what I lost, of course. Today I was surprised, after seeing the rose bush had been cut back to almost nothing by someone who was probably doing construction around that area, that it bounced back with plenty of buds. Even more good news was that recently the contractor clarified that he had no intention of killing the rosebush, but simply moving it to a different location, so to the front yard I believe it will go!

I had been wondering if the clippings I got from Monique were still alive. Well, these gorgeous, long-stem pink flowers that I forgot the name of are back, so I got my answer. These bring me such joy!

I’m so pleased that the cover to my beloved hot tub gazebo is now back in the backyard and not on my front yard where it had been sitting for a few weeks even after the chain fence had been removed. This kind of progress is heartening!

I had to insist that the frosted window in the main bathroom be replaced with clear windows. These windows are opposite the mirror above a double-vanity and I have plenty of privacy in that bathroom, which is going to be redesigned to have a separate water closet anyway, which is through another door. It will take several weeks, but these windows will be replaced with what I had before.

I keep bringing outdoor decor and gardening supplies back to my house under renovation regularly. I now have the gates reinforced. This way I don’t have to move numerous extra carloads when it gets closer to my move-in date, and I can start to rearrange my garden decor and plants as I go, so I have less work to do when I move home. I’m careful to keep all the fragile items in a place that will not be moved by the contractors and the less fragile items which they have up against the fence I am not concerned about falling off shelves when I’m not around.

I moved more crates of supplies today, which also helps to declutter the backyard in the rental. I’m always making tweaks to my home garden when I stop by, and today I brought my dogs and the two fosters. I pruned some branches and cleared the grounds of the lookout by moving branches into the bamboo “forest” so that the birds will hopefully pick up those branches and make nests, but most importantly I’m adhering to the chop and drop method, so that organic material is not constantly leaving my garden, but replenishing the soil and hopefully fostering the right plants to grow. I’ll still pull weeds, even if I let the nitrogen fixers linger.

Speaking of birds making nests, my favorite dove couple (I believe they’re the same one for years) made an appearance again today. At least one of them did, as you can see, resting on the fence with no fear of the dogs below. These doves are very special to me, as I’ve documented over the years. I have many pictures and videos of interactions with the dogs, but most importantly, they nested one year (obviously before the fire) in a wreath on my front porch. I intend to replace the wreath on the side wall of my entranceway with an even stronger one so that they will always have a place to raise their chicks without fear.

How the House Fire Started

We recently met with our contractor to level set. Two big updates came out of the meeting.

The move-in date is realistically August 2025, which is painful. Five more months of this limbo.

Perhaps most amazing is that he assures me that based on his opinion after seeing thousands of home fires and that of one of the fire inspectors, the third and final theory as to what started the fire is this:

The red line drawn on the left side of the back deck is representative of a wire UNDER the wood which I never knew of and which I doubt the home inspector would have been aware of. I did not even know there was a plug there. It’s on the opposite side of the electrical panel that I was aware of on the back deck. It was an extension cord that was plugged in apparently from years ago. It had live electricity. Over the years rodents may have very feasibly chewed on that wire. This does explain the extreme damage to the kitchen area where my refrigerator even melted, although there was certainly plenty of damage to go around. This also explains why some of the items on the opposite side of the deck (what I call “ground zero”) are actually NOT THAT DAMAGED. I have been able to repaint them and have them as decorations once again. I previously thought that was random.

This helps me to cope with that trauma. After the fire inspectors ruled out arson, the preliminary report 24 hours in called it an accident and electrical anomaly. That report thought it was the couch with a charger and extension cord that caused the fire. The previous “final” fire department report determined that it came from the back deck, but on the right side. Before the very first report the guilt and questioning were consuming me, not to mention the blame I had for others. There are still countless things that could have been done differently that day which would have yielded a very different outcome, but it’s not productive to run through those constantly.

Window Installation Day

After very frustrating delays, we swung by the house under renovation when a neighbor advised us that they were putting windows up finally, which includes sliders. I’m so relieved. Some of these pictures I took by putting my camera over the fence and had to look at them afterwards. Even the half circle above the front door is installed!

Paint Projects

I continue my painting projects inspired by many DYI and upthrifting Youtube videos I’ve been binging. I love thrift store purchases and some of the haul I’ve gotten from Facebook Marketplace, but I’m also glad I didn’t discard every fire-damaged item. Many items I’m spray painting are damaged from that terrible day. There are many things when I look back at the fire damage pictures that I regret not pulling out of the debris pile on my driveway and from the soot-covered insides of the house, but I was living in a fog at that period.

Paint Jobs

The few things that survived the fire, even if they were in the backyard , often had lots of paint damage to them. A fresh coat of paint helps a bit, although I might redo some of the colors. The red is a little too bright for some of these objects.

Almost a Year Since House Fire

Here’s a picture of my house being renovated as of today. I was encouraged a few weeks ago when I saw the insulation (or whatever that is) being placed on the siding, but apparently, nothing has changed for a few weeks even though this step was done after the holidays. Hopefully I’ll get an update soon, but frustratingly the contractor’s new insurance carrier doesn’t allow me on the premises of my OWN house at this juncture for liability reasons. I’m not even bothering to challenge this as the house is close to being done structurally and supposedly it’s ready for a roof inspection. I’m torn between feeling helpless and giddy with excitement about moving back within a few months. Saturday is the one-year anniversary of the fire.

I hold my survivor dog Snoopy and my new dog Bonnie extra tight, especially because she reminds me so much of the blind dogs I lost that day, but I miss the presence, warmth, and personalities of Pancho, Cappy, Polar, Snowball, and Matty so much since I didn’t get to say goodbye to them and I lost them before their time.

I am very triggered by the footage of my hometown Los Angeles (yes, I was born there). The nightmares continue, even sometimes when I take a nap, but I see the pictures of my lost dogs every day on my screensaver, whether that’s wise for me to do or not. I have video footage of them too, but it wasn’t enough in hindsight.

Inspiring Friends

We had a wonderful visit with Nick Dong. He is a world-renowned master designer/artist/genius and a good friend of many years who, like so many, helped me find some resilience and silver linings in the horrible event from last January (my catastrophic house fire and the loss of five precious canine souls). It was a privilege to revisit his custom home and for Shea to get to know him.

Nick inspires me to manifest my dream house with this rebuild and find ways to live my best life. In the footage Shea took you’ll see a reflection of the three of us in a small sampling of Nick’s mind-blowing kinetic pieces. If you ever get a chance to see the work of Studio Dong in person, don’t miss the opportunity!

One of his two amazing koi ponds with the most friendly fish I’ve ever met in my life!

Tapestries and Cheer

While I’m still counting the days to go home as the house is being rebuilt, since I have these tapestries that are so nostalgic for my siblings and me, I found a place to hang them for now, which cheers me up a little. A year ago I was taking pictures of all these dogs I miss so much with their xmas outfits. I don’t know if it’s healthy to constantly see their pictures rotating on my slideshows around the house. Still, it’s so important that I remember them and their distinct personalities, not to mention the other dogs I lost in more expected endings where I had a chance to say goodbye. This is the first time in my life I don’t think I will put up decorations or a full-size tree because this isn’t the home I planned to be in, even though I’m lucky to have a partner and two amazing dogs to be with this season. My mom’s ceramic xmas trees survived, so they will suffice. I might change my mind and see what other holiday decorations survived the fire, but this is the current plan. Shea doesn’t seem to mind that I’m not rearranging the house for the holidays and there is plenty of other projects we’re working on so it’s not a priority.